my true valentine

It's not pink and gold and roses. 

But it's oh so real, so flawed, so mine, so us. 

I love him.

And I love us.

face the monsters

So incredibly scared and at the same time it's all I think about now, that's why I shouldn't have started it all. But I read somewhere that you should do whatever scares you the most, that you should face your monsters, that's the only way to push them away. So here I am, beginning to push them away once more. 

the hours

The hours go by so fast,

you'd think I was having fun.

What I truly am is confused,

it makes you spin and spin,

you travel miles and stay still.

shells

She wanted to be celebrated for something that was just common sense, I don't know why but it filled me with anger. Still she didn't realize she's been wrong all along. How can we be so blinded to think the shell is what matters most? Beautiful shells can be empty and fragile too.

the moments that count

It was an ordinary day,

just like any other sunday,

family gathered,

grill on,

then we heard the news,

and the day wasn't ordinary anymore,

it was special and magical,

I don't recall ever being this happy.

And these are the moments that count,

when life surprises you,

when you're so happy that you cry,

and your smile is as wide as your face,

nothing matters if you just remember these moments. 

2015

This time I didn't write about my year way in advance like I did the one before,
2014 was so clearly great it was easy to set it in paper before it was done,
now I'm counting the days and hoping the last hours count,
it wasn't bad but the adventures tamed down,
I grew more serious and focused, 
got a side job which I love,
I'm healthy and at peace,
I'm in love.
Honestly, 
I've got it all,
but it's not ever enough,
remember I laughed more than cried,
stood my ground and justice was made,
discovered new passions and tried it all out,
spent amazing days cooking the night away,
renewed myself by giving my hair to a great cause,
went to the happiest place on earth with longtime friends,
realized how fragile we all are and how to really trust once more,
organized, planned and failed but stood right back up ready for more.

2015 had it's peaks and it's lows but I wouldn't change it, for I am who I am due to the shake-up. 

the old and the new

It's coming to an end,
and everyone is making plans,
celebrating the year just past,
or perhaps celebrating the new start,
because in the end that's all we want,
new oportunities and to leave the slate blank,
to forgive ourselves for our mistakes,
to move on and forget,
to be ready for whatever life has in stock. 

the screwing you over

The bad ones will screw you over but good ones will do that too, and it hurts worse because you don't even see it coming.