July 31, 2012

damn the rules

I was upset because what she said was true. 
"He won't love you if you keep doing what you do." 
Damn the dating rules.

things to pray for

I need you to stop praying for me to find him, because it might not happen and I'd hate to be a disappointment. I need you to start praying for me to be happy and to get whatever is good for me, whatever that might be.

July 26, 2012

the controler in me

She's fearless,
and she wants it all. 
She doesn't let me stop.
She's not nice,
and she's not kind. 
She's stubborn and 
And she lives within me.

I can't seem to quiet her down.

the blind believer

Perhaps he'd come back if I just changed.

July 23, 2012

things to make you laugh

"I have a growing queue of things I know will make you laugh and I don’t know where to put them."
- Jon Sands

what you have III

You have a smile that kills all the doubt in me, but you barely use it anymore...

July 19, 2012

the difference between us

I was just a breath of fresh air,
you were my oxygen,
that's the difference.

the reasons for goodbye

Don't worry it's not you,
it's me and my ways.
Don't worry it's not you,
it's me and my regrets.

the twisted mind

Perhaps he didn't lie, it was all in my mind.

July 16, 2012

the influence of you

You saw tears pouring down,
and couldn't believe,
the influence you had 
on another human being.

You saw me broken down,
and it made you feel powerful.

It made me feel weak.

July 10, 2012

what you have II

You have eyes that shine, but they don't shine for me.

if it is you (the 300th)

I get random messages now, sometimes I think it's you looking around for words that I cannot say when we're together, sometimes I think it's simply a stranger that gets me.

If it is you I want you to know that sometimes I force myself to stop thinking about you. If you are a stranger, then thank you for coming around.

July 9, 2012

the amount of meaning

You'd think something like this would mean nothing to me or to anyone, but it means a lot. 

July 6, 2012

what you have I

You have lips that I don't get to kiss, but I still call mine.

July 5, 2012

the butterfly

The butterfly never learned to fly, but she was beautiful. Oh, so beautiful.

the trade

Traded a lifetime for a moment of joy, and it went so fast.

I have nothing now.

Just regrets.

July 4, 2012

magical ashes

And I went through fire, because out of ashes, broken wings mend and fly,

so I've heard,

or hoped.

the optimist

Perhaps he meant well and I just read him wrong.

July 1, 2012

change in pace

Don’t know why I ran when all I ever really wanted was to walk slowly with you.