August 31, 2012

the late night conversation

He always talks to me when it's late at night
and the regular folks are sleeping tight, 
the small talk makes me mad,
but there's nowhere I can hide. 

I've been told to open up, 
so here I am,
but his words could be left unsaid
and I'd be alright.

the real problem

Problem is everyone talks about us, except us.

August 28, 2012

unknow me

Unknow me,
forget my face, my voice,
my quirks, my flaws.
Forget my skin, my touch,
how we met and our storms.

Forget it all.

Unlove me,
but it do it real slow.
‘Cause my heart can’t take the plunge.

August 26, 2012

just a dream

Opened my eyes,
and it was all a dream.

I never met you, 
I never loved you,
I never left you.

the way

Can I please wake up with an answer? 
Can I please get a beam of light showing me the way?
Please God, let me know.

August 21, 2012

the city adjustment

These streets used to see so much,
now it’s all gone.
Oh, how things have changed.

We used to walk in the parks,
used to smile,
used to meet random strangers.
used to feel safe.

Now we’ve changed,
we are cautious,
we are protective,
we are afraid.

Makes me sound old,
and it’s only my 23rd round around the sun.

the internet lover

I don't want to love a stranger.
I want someone who gets to hold my hand.

I don't want to be a click away from goodbye.

August 18, 2012

not coming back

"I have this feeling that I'm not coming back."
"But you’re only leaving for a week", he said.
"I know, but I'll be different."

After our talk things were never the same... I was glad.

August 16, 2012

happy birthday heart breaker

You were born on a day like this 25 years ago, your mama had waited so patiently for a perfect little boy, an innocent new baby boy. I wonder what you went through all these years that made you the man you are now, what made you the man I met? 

Was your heart always tainted or was it just me that ignited the hate spark?
Was is it nature or choice that made you treat me like you did?
Choice or not, it doesn't really matter, what's done is done. 

Happy birthday heart breaker, 
may this new year be bright,
I hold no grudges, 
I'll leave it all behind,
so you can have a fresh new start.

Cry birthday boy,
like the new born baby
who just discovered life. 

August 14, 2012


It was yes
and it was no,
and I wanted it all,
so I beat myself up.

Breathe in,
breathe out,
take control.

Just can't let go,
let me once more,
once and it'll be enough.

Instant satisfaction,
nerves are calm,
then I remember
I said it'd be my last.

Breathe in,
breathe out,
take control.

August 10, 2012

the separation

As I separate from you I separate from feelings. It's lovely to be free.

August 8, 2012


There's only you and me and the stars if they dare make a sound.

August 6, 2012


Hot as ever, walking underneath the rich and shiny sun, making my way back to the routine. These days driving feels off, I guess I became unaccustomed,  singing loudly without people listening remains a relief. I still believe other drivers think I'm just talking to myself and it's fine, I do that too.

The new month caught me off guard in between realizing I love you and trying to calm myself down. It's more than mid-year and everything seems the same, it worries me.

August 5, 2012

the people who vanish

People always leave,
I was always left,
and perhaps that's why I lost my confidence,
because how do you trust yourself,
when someone decides you're not enough to stay.

August 3, 2012

all you need is...

It's often said that all you need is love, but quite frankly I think all you need is hope. 
If you have hope you'll keep going.

August 2, 2012

our mountains

We shared our mountains, 
like they meant something about us. 
Your home, 
my home.  
Yours were frozen, 
mine were round,
both were mighty 
and made a stand,
but mountains cannot move, 
so they'll never meet. 

Such a shame, 
it made me cry.