April 5, 2017

the good wishes

He said this would be my year and that I should enjoy it. Such simple words yet they filled my heart with joy and comfort. Isn't it lovely when someone, anyone, predicts good things for you? Even if they can't control it, the simple thought makes it all better. 

February 23, 2017

where do I go when I go

Drove all the way back home in silence, didn't even care to turn the radio on. It was such a trance I didn't notice until I was two minutes away. Didn't think of anything at all, I just wasn't there. Still trying to figure out where I go when I go. 

January 17, 2017

the go getter

I never thought I could, but I did and it made me feel powerful and strong. Like if I could do this, I could do anything at all. 

October 30, 2016

the end of october

October was ending,
it went by so fast,
it went by so slow,
it went by without me being really there at all.


October 25, 2016

it wasn't home

I did get to miss those mountains again,
this time I felt a hole in my chest,
and the new place was wonderful,
beautiful buildings, green everywhere,
but it wasn't home.

it all fades away

It would've been nice to have been told that fear is greater in the anticipatory moments and once you're doing whatever you feared, it all fades away. Sometimes you even go through it and forget what it was that terrified you so much.

September 14, 2016

if I could be softer

My words always sounded harsher than I meant them out to be. I hurt people unwillingly and I don't realize it until the words have left me. I could see the look in their eyes. If I could be softer I would be, believe me. I'm sorry.

July 21, 2016

dream new dreams

And then just like that dreams become memories and we're sent off again to dream new dreams.