July 28, 2011

the past

I realized after a while that sometimes you have to leave the past behind, maybe even kick it before it creeps back into your present. It's a tough thing to do when the past keeps saying all these nice things, but don't give in, they know exactly what to say to get you. Leave the past in the past where it belongs.

don't dare, don't bother

I hate when you do this. Don't you dare make me feel guilty when it was you who never came around. I've been in this town for two months and you didn't bother to call or visit and now a weekend before leaving you say you've moved all your plans for me? Don't bother.

July 10, 2011

keep hoping

Some people get lucky and find the love of their lifes, some don't, who's to say I won't be one of those happy people? I might as well and keep hoping for the best...

July 9, 2011

Fact #13

Fact: My love for you will die unspoken.

comfortable loneliness

I won't find him until I'm successful, that's what she told me. Maybe I should believe her, work has always been my focus, don't know why I felt like I could just change. I'm scared that maybe when that happens I won't want to find him anymore, I'll be comfortable alone.

July 7, 2011

the benefit

Whenever I have a sad facebook status, he's always asking if it's about him and it probably is but I never tell him the truth, he already had the benefit of breaking me I won't give him the benefit of knowing about it.

July 5, 2011

a bad night

It's just a bad night, that's what I tell myself, I don't know any other way to deal. I wanted to feel strong for so long, but who am I kidding, I'm still little fragile scared me, I get lonely and sad and I cry in the middle of the night when there's no one around 'cause I wouldn't know how to explain that I've lost all hope and I'm so tired of merely existing.