December 31, 2012

the end of 2012

Here we are once again, a lot has changed, don't you think? 

Last year it was raining, the weather is perfect now, at least for a couple more days. This past year I met wonderful people, missed home, came back, cried my eyes out, yelled and learned that it doesn't help. 

I have to keep in mind that everything's changed even if it seems the same.

December 25, 2012

i became you

Somewhere between the light of hope and 5 am I became you. I said the things you always used to say, agreed and responded just like you would. Found the thrill of making someone believe. Oh how juicy it is to inflate dreams, how comforting to know I won't follow through, just like you.

the questions you ask

It's not wrong that you think of me this way,
it's not the reason why I'm silent and absent,
it's just I've missed you all these days
and this is what you want to know, 
this is what's important to you,
it's disappointing.

she dreamt of flying away

She had trouble choosing paths, activities, friends and love, she wanted to be fair to all. She wasn't a bird, she had no wings or feathers but quite often she dreamt of opening her arms wide and flying away to find some place new and exciting. 

December 20, 2012

i'm a fluke

The way you think of me will never change. It's like a given thing, it doesn't matter that I do things to prove I'm different. You met me at my fluke, so fluke I'll be.

December 19, 2012

our belonging

I'll never get to hold you like you were mine.
You were mine, weren't you?
I was yours.
I'm sure.

December 16, 2012

it's a truce

I forgive you even though you're not sorry.

fire vs. romance

The fire kept winning over the romantic soul of yours,
it's uncontrollable,
it's nature you say.

You don't want help,
think you're fine,
but it's driving people mad,
specially me.

july by boy

Didn't want any of it and then I heard that song. I thought this is the song I'll dedicate to the future man of my life when I meet him and realize it's him. So here I am, thinking about my undiscovered soul mate and the things I want to say and ask and dedicate and how I'll explain this has to be our wedding song.

December 10, 2012

the girl i used to be

Back then I was wild,
adventurous and carefree.
If I let go of you,
it's as if I was letting go of her,
who I used to be,
but I can't let go, 
she left me already. 

December 5, 2012

you lost me

So you lost me a while back but you didn't even notice, like that toy you used to play with and then left behind. After a while you missed it and only then you realized it was gone, misplaced, abandoned, it was too late.

doubt conquers

Days pass by, doubt starts crawling back making for itself a cozy fort inside your mind. You can barely recall you once were certain, it seems natural and even understandable to let it settle.