February 26, 2013

you were right

I didn't know you, you were right.
It wasn't up until the moment of goodbye
that I realized how much I shared of myself 
and how you always listened but never shared back.

I don't know how you treat your mom,
what you like for breakfast on a sunday morning, 
how do you cope with a storm,
your favorite color or song. 

I don't know what side of bed you like, 
your favorite snack, 
your most comfortable pants,
the recurring nightmares you had,
or even who broke your heart.

I know what you do,
although I don't understand,
I know where you live,
and that sideways smile.
I know you take the bus,
and you stay up late most of the time.

The things that I know are merely facts,
I don't know you,
you were right.

February 23, 2013

not the one

More than anything I wanted to be enough for you,
I wanted all the little details to fix themselves so we didn't have to worry,
it's clear now that even if the stars had alligned I wouldn't have been the one.

February 22, 2013

let it die

Maybe it's time to have some pride
and let the relationship die,
we rescued it plenty of times,
can't say we didn't try.

February 19, 2013

falling in love

Fell in love every day, not with him, not with myself either. Fell in love everyday with the world and the universe and those universes I never learned of. I fell for the invading ivy making its way and the shining moon that never missed a day.

February 14, 2013

the template

He became the template of everything I thought necessary in a man, minus the distance.

February 8, 2013

never tired

Some people never tire of hurting others.
Some people never tire of being hurt.


February 4, 2013

your new city

With each step you take the city unfolds just to fold you into the streets and the buildings, and into the snow which you hadn't seen before. It's cold outside but you still want to try, I admire you. Couple of weeks and you're settled in, that fear you felt before is now just a memory, if at all, now you think you belong.

live with it

When someone breaks a heart to pieces they should be aware.
I'm beyond saving, but I don't want you do to it to anybody else.

You destroyed me.
I thought you should know and live with it.