March 31, 2012

the goodbye letter

I'm sorry I left without saying goodbye, I couldn't bring myself to explain why I had to go, even when I promised I would let you know if I ever planned on leaving. Days ago my mom caught me crying, I had been so careful before and this time she saw and said she wouldn't leave until I told her what was happening, so I broke down and told her.

It's selfish to leave now that you opened up to me, but it's been a while since I thought about what's good for me. You're not good for me, as much as I wan't to be your friend, I can't. I wish you only the best, because you're amazing, you made me feel again when I thought I was empty and I'm sure you'll find your way.

Believe me when I say I'll miss you so much.
I'll hold you in my heart forever.

the word-less boy

He could speak
but he never wanted to.
He could be heard
but never wanted to be heard.
He could yell
but he didn't want to make a scene.
At nineteen the boy is word-less,
the boy is mute, 
the boy has frozen
and there's nothing anyone can do.


It's cold and it's late,
and I want you to stay,
here with me.

March 28, 2012

do i?

I know I said I missed you, but do I? Or did I say it just because you did. Did I say it because it's nice to have someone miss you? Did I maybe say it because I want you to be there missing me again next time I'm away?

March 20, 2012

even if you win the marathon

It doesn't matter how fast you run, you can't outrun your feelings.

the problem with me

The problem is there is no problem but I keep looking for it.

March 19, 2012

bad timing

I looked for you everywhere,
but I never found you,
and I got tired of waiting.

I'm sorry I gave up while you were on your way.

March 17, 2012

empty missing

He missed me,
and I missed him,
but that meant nothing.

the mountains

In times of trouble look at the mountains, they've been here long enough, they probably have some answers.

March 14, 2012

the pay

It pays off to breathe just to breathe you in.

March 12, 2012

i got the news

I just got the news, 
you didn't make it.
I hadn't seen you in a long time
but I'll always remember your smile 
and the kind words you always had in hand.

My family saw you last week, 
you sent greetings to me
and you were doing just fine.
I guess that was our goodbye.

March 10, 2012

call it what you want

Call it what you want but what we have is not simply a friendship.

two sided sword

It's on again. 
He thinks he'll win me over. 

Don't you know because of you I learned not to trust?
Don't you know you were once my doom and now my savior?

how it is

He asked for reasons and I didn't have answers he'd like to hear.