December 31, 2011

kiss 2011 goodye

It's about to end,
it went by so fast,
at least I'm still
holding on to my heart.

It was filled with surprise
and left me nowhere I had planned
but oh! 2011,
you were so kind.

I'll hold you in my mind
and visit when I can,
I won't forget
the good times we had.

December 30, 2011

i can't die

No, I can't die, I thought as the car wildly danced and twirled on the wet pavement, I've never kissed someone I loved.

December 28, 2011

the special guy

You're a special kind of guy, the kind to keep me hopeful for the years to come.

December 27, 2011

the compatibility test

They were young when they met, when the most important compatibility test was to like the same band, so they clicked. It's a shame that they grew up and apart.

December 25, 2011

stung by the raising truth

"They will always have problems and you will always be the other woman", he said. 
And it stung like hell, because it was true.

December 24, 2011


He strummed his guitar 
and every note hit the back of my neck,
he sang foreign words,
and every word hit my heart.

I'd forgotten what melodies are supposed to be like,
I'd forgotten how to feel through someone else's voice.
Thank you Benny for your songs.

December 20, 2011

spinning world

I'm glad to confirm that the world didn't stop when you left  like I thought it would. 
It kept going, so did I, so did everybody else.

December 13, 2011

starry night

And tonight, beneath the star filled sky, I dont want to stop looking at you for a second.

December 12, 2011

our lives

We built our lives on separate lanes because the world wouldn't have it any other way. In the end we were alright, I wasn't yours and you weren't mine. I had a Mr. and you had a wife. We had regrets, still we managed to survive.


Because it felt so good to be bad,
because I wanted to dare them all,
because what I had wasn't enough.

I let go.

December 4, 2011

in another life

"In another life I would be your girl."
-Katy Perry (The one that got away)

December 3, 2011

the rush

Maybe it's nothing, maybe it's everything, I'll know when I know, until then why not enjoy it?

December 2, 2011

the digger

Once again I'm seduced by the bad habits I thought I'd left behind. You, with those kind words, you knew exactly the moves to make it go down. So it happened, and I digged myself a hole, a little deeper than before, there's no way out.

November 27, 2011

the things you do

You make me feel while the world tries to make me numb.

November 24, 2011

you weren't there

I woke up wanting to kiss you,
I woke up wanting to feel you sleeping next to me,
but you weren't there.

November 16, 2011

if you knew

What would you do if you knew the truth?
You judge and tear those girls apart just based on rumors
or the look in their eyes.
What would you do if you knew about me?
The little sister gone bad,
in your eyes I’d be no good.
Would that change my position in the pedestal I once had?

November 15, 2011

the productive day

We spent hours doing nothing, just staring at each other, to me it felt like the most productive day.

the hopeful morning

I was still sleepy and angry for being awake and out of home so early when I saw this couple in the street, he appeared out of nowhere scarying the girl, she laughed and hugged him, he held her hand and kissed her. 

It became a hopeful morning right then and there.

November 11, 2011

the video

It's not the kind of thing for you to watch and cry, but I did, I did cry.

November 6, 2011


It's raining, the days seem shorter and the house is so quiet without him. Oh november, I thought you'd be good.

November 3, 2011

your eyes

I loved his eyes, they were almond shaped windows to his soul and it wasn't just the shape but the kindness he reflected in every blink that made me love them.

October 26, 2011

i could be anywhere

Lying in bed, barely opening my eyes and I feel like l could open them and be anywhere in the world. This silence let’s my mind fly but I come right back because there’s nowhere I’d rather be than right here with you.

it's up to you

“It feels like rock bottom, but I don’t want to stand up”, she said. I uncrossed my arms and wiped my tears away, “there’s nothing for me to do then” I said and left, I can’t deal watching her destroy herself.

October 24, 2011

yell it out

"You are not for me!", I yelled looking at your picture on my computer screen. It sounds pathetic but I had to at least do that.

October 20, 2011

hey you, surprise!

Every now and then life will surprise you with someone who's worth it.

October 18, 2011

like the ocean

He said my eyes were as deep as the ocean and I never looked straight at him again, I didn't want him to drown.

October 15, 2011

i'm sorry too

You're sorry for things you never did and I'm sorry for not letting you know it was never your fault.

not a waste

Love is never wasted, it might not be corresponded but it lights up your days and shows you how to get through the nights.

October 12, 2011

the stranger knows me more

I always think it's you coming around to see how I am, who am I kidding? It's not you. It's some random stranger who reads my thoughts and maybe knows me more than you do.

October 10, 2011

reasons why

It's not because you're in love with some guy, it's because I'm in love with you that I can't be your friend anymore.

act the part

She said we're all acting a part, we're not really some way, we just act the part we believe we should at the moment. The sister, the daughter, the student, the worker, the friend, the lover, all just an act, she said. And I believed.

October 7, 2011

October 4, 2011

the first rainy autumn day

She walked in without knocking for the first time and I was crying. No way to deny it with my swollen red face and the kleenex in my hand. It was the first rainy autumn day, a grey thursday afternoon, the kind of day that triggers the worst emotions in you.

October 2, 2011


October, I've been waiting for you.  You changed the weather I hope you can change me too, heal my old wounds.

September 29, 2011

you and i

We were never together. We were never apart.

inspiration dry spell

The writing spark was gone
and even when I was living dramatic times,
tears brought no inspiration,
they were merely a prop.
So I dried them and tried to move on,
I wanted to write
but it all seemed so wrong.
Where did my inspiration go?

Weeks went by,
paper still blank
Is this the end of the letting it all out?

September 26, 2011

mother cried

Mother cried reminiscing of the past,
“the tougher times”,
where there was no money
but there was love.
She remembered the fight,
the saving, us being born
and the beloved family vacations.
I didn’t remember much of that,
but I still cried,
because that’s the first time I ever heard her complain about being sad.

good days

 "I can't remember life without him. I think I did have good days..."
-Maria Mena

September 24, 2011

this being that i am

I tried listening and singing at the top of my lungs the saddest songs and still no tears. I think you made it, you left me as a dry and emotion-less being.

September 23, 2011

where to begin?

I want to believe again. 
I want to have hope.
I want to believe in love.
I want to believe it's all true.
I want to believe again. 
And I just don't know what to do.

September 3, 2011

random messages

I don't know if it's destiny, a coincidence or just that our hearts are connected but sometimes when I feel horribly sad and I shed my first tear I get a random message from you, and at least for that second when I  see your name on my screen I feel so much better. Thank you.

August 30, 2011

morning light

Oh what a beautiful sight, you standing by the window. The sun lightly illuminates your face as you sip your morning coffee. Such a familiar scene, the one I’ve witnessed for the past months. This is what people must mean when they talk about happiness, just a graceful, peaceful moment, so intimate that only true lovers can share. I’m not the sort of person who comfortably talks about emotion, especially when it comes to my own, but today this image, this moment is pushing me out into the darkness of a sentimental cliff. I wish I could control it, so in an effort to stay calm, I took a deep breath, I felt my lungs fill with the truest air, my body overflowing with the necessity to exhale my deepest feelings for you.

August 28, 2011

element of surprise

Wish you lived down my street so I could have the possibility to bump into you at any time. I'd love the element of suprise, especially if it involved you.

wake the feeling up

I had dream where I grabbed you by your shoulders and shook you until you came into your senses and realized you love me, like it was a feeling sleeping inside you, that just needed a quick start. Then I woke up and realized this probably wouldn't work so I won't even bother.

August 27, 2011

i miss

I didn't hear about the news until I got home from work, everyone was around the TV watching how the story developed, the images were shocking, horrible smoke, not even the news anchor could hide her pain as she said "armed men shot and lit fire to a local casino, up till now 40 people reported dead, they're still searching for bodies".  What has this city turned into? Who is capable of doing such things and keep walking around without a care in the world? I'm devastated and I feel power-less, I pray for the victims and their families, I pray for the safety of us all. 

This isn't my city. I miss my city.

August 25, 2011

Fact #14

Fact: No one knows me like you do.

you're always on my mind

It's pouring out there, the rain is hitting my window as if asking to come in, the skies are grey and thunder strikes every now and then and all I think about is you. I hope you're home, safe and warm, away from the madness, with no worries at all.

August 24, 2011

they were right

Maybe what they said was true, that we confused the loneliness we both had for love.

August 12, 2011

in you

"I find peace when I'm confused, I find hope when I'm let down, not in me but in you."
 - Switchfoot (You)

on that day

Maybe someday you'll read this blog and know it's mostly about you and what you make me feel. Maybe that day you'll realize how much you hurt me even when I stayed quiet. Maybe that day you'll try to make things right. I sure hope that on that day I'm no longer in your life.

August 7, 2011

when i'm gone

You always like me better when I'm away I've realized, when I'm gone you can't seem to let go, you ask about when we'll meet again and you tell me you think I'm great, then I come around and it's all wasted, like nothing ever happened, take me for granted once again. And listen, that's all fine, but one of these days when I leave, it'll be for good and I won't even say goodbye.

August 1, 2011

the guts

I admire her even not knowing her, she likes you and she makes her move, she kissed you and you didn't pull away, how great for her. I wish I had her guts, honestly I wish I could be bold in love but I'm same old me, the nervous reck, the one you come to tell the stories to and that's about it.

the game

Now I don't know what to say because I realize my feelings for  you will never fade away. What's this game that I'm playing by being your friend?

July 28, 2011

the past

I realized after a while that sometimes you have to leave the past behind, maybe even kick it before it creeps back into your present. It's a tough thing to do when the past keeps saying all these nice things, but don't give in, they know exactly what to say to get you. Leave the past in the past where it belongs.

don't dare, don't bother

I hate when you do this. Don't you dare make me feel guilty when it was you who never came around. I've been in this town for two months and you didn't bother to call or visit and now a weekend before leaving you say you've moved all your plans for me? Don't bother.

July 10, 2011

keep hoping

Some people get lucky and find the love of their lifes, some don't, who's to say I won't be one of those happy people? I might as well and keep hoping for the best...

July 9, 2011

Fact #13

Fact: My love for you will die unspoken.

comfortable loneliness

I won't find him until I'm successful, that's what she told me. Maybe I should believe her, work has always been my focus, don't know why I felt like I could just change. I'm scared that maybe when that happens I won't want to find him anymore, I'll be comfortable alone.

July 7, 2011

the benefit

Whenever I have a sad facebook status, he's always asking if it's about him and it probably is but I never tell him the truth, he already had the benefit of breaking me I won't give him the benefit of knowing about it.

July 5, 2011

a bad night

It's just a bad night, that's what I tell myself, I don't know any other way to deal. I wanted to feel strong for so long, but who am I kidding, I'm still little fragile scared me, I get lonely and sad and I cry in the middle of the night when there's no one around 'cause I wouldn't know how to explain that I've lost all hope and I'm so tired of merely existing.

June 24, 2011

Fact #12

Fact: We don't even need words, our eyes can carry long coversations.

i just want to go

I feel the tears running down my face, I don't think my sunglasses are big enough to hide them. I try to walk faster, I need to get to the bus stop now, I just want to go home and lay on my bed and cry 'cause you don't love me anymore, maybe you never did.

June 18, 2011

maybe you could too

And some people actually like me you know? They see who I am, sometimes better than I do, maybe if you saw how they love me you could love me too.

June 17, 2011


Why do you do this? I wish I could understand, it's as if at the best times we have you just want to unplug and go, so go... be free, just don't come back again.

June 12, 2011

Fact #11

Fact: When I said it was alright for you to date her, I lied, I still want you with me.

June 10, 2011

now or never

And it's now or never baby, you either want me or you don't.

June 7, 2011

it's time

Stay away already, do you think it's alright to parade around me everytime you're in the mood for it? No, this time I'm putting my foot down, no is no.

June 6, 2011

the things I forget

I forget you're not mine.
I forget we said our goodbyes.
I forget yours mentioned a "I want you out of my life".

the situation handler

I was calm, more than I thought I'd be, apparently I'm better at handling these situations than I give myself credit for, it probably has to do with the fact that you've left me so many times.

June 5, 2011

on the hook

We keep people on the hook, the safety one, the one that gives your ego a boost but won't ever give an actual chance. I keep him. You keep me. I'm done now, you can un-hook me.

June 4, 2011

Fact #10

Fact: I love how you remember our most random conversations.

June 3, 2011

my problem

My problem was that I never allowed myself to miss you, I kept calling all the time, it hurted but not as much as being without you.

please remember

She hugged me and told me "remember you're not alone", with tears running down my cheek I said "that's all I needed to hear" and I left with a new found strenght.

May 31, 2011

Fact #9

Fact: Yes, I will miss you while I'm gone.

May 30, 2011

can't believe

"I never told you what I should've said... and now I miss everything about you, can't believe that I still want you."
                                                                                                             -Colbie Caillat

about love

There comes a point when you just love someone. Not because they’re good, or bad, or anything really. You just love them. It doesn’t mean you’ll be together forever. It doesn’t mean you won’t hurt each other. It just mean you love them. Sometimes in spite of who they are, and sometimes because of who they are. And you know that they love you, sometimes because of who you are, and sometimes in spite of it.”
                                                                                -Laurell K. Hamilton (Incubus Dreams)

that excuse

Because at some point I didn't really know if your excuse was legitimate or just a lie to put off our meeting, I never dared to ask because that's the kind of pain that would last.

May 29, 2011

you knew me

You never said goodbye even though you knew you were leaving, I guess you didn't think I could handle it. You knew me so well even till the end of our days.

May 27, 2011

you should know

I want you to know that I think I love you and it's merely a thought because in reality I'm not even sure what love is. I just know I want to know about you and your everyday life, I miss you when you're not around even for a little while, my face lights up whenever you call, you're so wrong but at the same time the best combination I've ever found, I honestly can't imagine my life without you. Anyway, I just thought you should know.

just an act

Who am I kidding? I'm not as strong as I pretend to be, it does break my heart everytime you talk about her, but it's too late to let you know my strenght was just an act, it's too late for you to know.

May 26, 2011

as for now

One day I might remember our conversations and be grateful it all happened the way it did, as for now please go f*ck yourself and leave me alone.

not in your city

"And it may look to you like I’m just walking through your city with my head held high. But in my head, I am not in your city."
-I Wrote This for You

word-less call

I felt my heart break a little. I knew I shouldn't have called, she was obviously there and he didn't have to say much.

May 24, 2011

Fact #8

Fact: I don't think I'll ever fully understand why we weren't meant to be.

the heart doctor

I can feel us dying, this feeling that we have is fading away. This condition has no cure, the heart doctor said at the very most we have one more month to go. I agree.

May 23, 2011

leave me a message

Leave me a message, let me know you're out there, give me a sign, just anything...
Make me feel alive once again.

our story

Our story was perfect and magical, the kind of story you dream of having with the love of your life so you can re-tell it every time you meet someone, as perfect as it was, it crashed. Now there's nothing more that bits and pieces of you and me scattered on my mind.

May 22, 2011

Fact #7

Fact: I love you more than I did when you were mine.

let's do it

I kept thinking that if we went into the next step, we'd ruin us, whatever it is we have. Fuck it, let's do it, let's ruin our friendship, it's not like we're getting much from it now.

the victim

It's alright, you found your new "victim", now you can go make her cry instead of me.

not good

I dreamt you died, it was the worst nightmare I've ever had. At your funeral I met your best friend and told her " I just don't know what to do of my life without him". I woke up realizing this is true, when you're not around even for a couple of hours I feel lost, this isn't good.

no one to blame

It's not your fault, I'm sure you didn't want to entice me with your looks, your smiles, your kisses, it just happened. There's no one to blame.

May 21, 2011

Fact #6

Fact: I dream about you much more than I let you know. I probably dream about you much more than I let myself know.

May 20, 2011

back to you

"Something always brings me back to you, it never takes too long."
                                                                              -Gravity by Sara Bareilles

the same

What I learned from this is that everybody moves on and I keep standing still, so still you'd think you're talking to me 3 years ago, same friends, same crush, same school, same all. Not saying I want a big change, but will something ever get old with me?

what's real?

I could've said yes, mainly because I really wanted to, but I didn't answer, real things scare me too much.

she loves you

She loves you with all her heart, she's always been around, despite of all the things you do behind her back. Take good care of her kiddo, girls like that are hard to find.

small world

The world is a small place. No borderlines, no governments, no nationalities can keep us apart.

May 18, 2011

fact #5

Fact: I pretend that my nicknames and statuses are just phrases and bits of songs totally unrelated but in reality they're all meant for you.

May 17, 2011

make it happen

Stop wishing and start making things happen. If you want change then change, if you want love then love, if you want me then tell me.

May 16, 2011

fact #4

Fact: Maybe it's already over, maybe it never even began but I can't keep you off my mind.

mind matters

Why do I keep making up these stories in my mind?
There's nothing going on, not now not ever.
So stop it.
Mind, seriously...stop it!

no luck

I tried setting fire to the rain and the outcome is still the same, no luck.
Just like you and I, no luck.

May 15, 2011

mind inhabitant

You, talking about her again. She never leaves your mind like you never leave mine. And I guess that's the way it goes, we both want impossibles and we both think there's no other choice.

you don't know me

And they said, he's not the sort of guy for you, we just imagined someone different for you based on who you are. And I just thought, you don't even know me.

Fact #3

Fact: When you call I let the phone ring for a little while, not because I'm busy (most of the time) but because I just like seeing your name on my phone screen.

the criticism

I learned that people will always find something to critize you for, they will always talk. If you dress a certain way, if you say certain words, if you act a certain way, can't make them all happy and that's alright. Learn to do things for you, not for the sake of someone else's conversation.

May 8, 2011

your kind

Tired of listening to you cheap lies, you think you're going to make me fall but I know better, I know your kind.

May 7, 2011

self control

No self control, you keep caving into your bad habits and you know it. You make me feel guilty but it's all you. Don't act as if you're mad cause you knew all along it was your fault.

May 2, 2011

the problem

I don't have a problem loving you, I have a problem with you not feeling it too.

May 1, 2011

different times

This time is different, this time it's not the same...I grew up, I learned,  I lived... now it's not the same. This time I won't belive empty words, this time you have to give a little more.

April 30, 2011

unsaved note

Thank you for making me believe in true love,
even if it was for a short amount of time,
you brought me back to life.

you see me

I'll never forget the day we met, the way you looked at me was like never before. I tell my friends and they never understand but it's an amazing feeling meeting someone who looks right into your eyes and sees you, the raw you.

April 27, 2011

the silence

One of those days where the silence invades us and there is not a single sound. It gets lonely when I forget the tone of your voice and my thoughts are all I have. But you'll never know.


Someone told me it will all get better with such certainty that I let myself believe. With tears swelling up, I can't take it anymore, I just want to believe it can get better, I can feel better, I can trust again. 

April 26, 2011

time for change

Exhausted of these feelings. Seriously I need a change. Years I've been chained to you, hoping for a change, but boy it's always the same, me loving you, you leaving me. It's not fair and it's time for a change.

you're letting me down

When you said you'd call I believed you, yet the call never came.
When you said you loved nobody but me I believed you, yet there was someone else.
I keep believing and you keep letting me down.

April 24, 2011

fact #2

Fact #2: I still listen that song you recommended. I turn the volume up and sing at the top of my lungs. I might cry, it might hurt but I love having those memories back.

April 20, 2011


Drowning in our memories is all I seem to do now, funny how happy times bring tears to my eyes. What do I do? What do I do with all these feelings? Is there somewhere I can throw them away? Is there someone who wants them? I don't want to know, I don't want to feel the emptyness of what might have been.

April 9, 2011

sealed from you

I don't want to hear you anymore, I'm now sealed from everything negative you say. No, don't even try to put me down cause I'm flying high. No, don't tell me I'm not beautiful cause I know I am.

April 8, 2011

in chains

You're pulling me down, your memories are pushing me, I can't take these chains anymore. It took me a while but now I'm ready to fly, had the key all along I was just scared to let go.

April 6, 2011

not alone

At the darkest of times, when you're crying, when you don't feel there's a way, remember you're not alone. No one ever is.

April 5, 2011

don't you see?

Don't you see my heart bleeding for you? Don't you see my soul is aching for you? Don't you see that all I ever think about is you? Don't you care about how I feel? Don't you want to see where this goes?

The answer is no, no, no, i don't care and no. One last thing, f** you for asking me all that now that I've moved on.

i'd laugh

A: What if he calls one day ands says he's in love with you, that he has been in love all along?
B: I would definately laugh.
A: Why?
B: Because it's been 5 years and he's been wasting my time.

April 3, 2011

the pathetic call

I wanted to call you so badly, but what was I going to say? I've missed you these past 3 days. It's pathetic, how can I not live without you for that amount of time. Maybe it's not that I can't, maybe it's just that I don't want to.

meet again

I haven't slept well in a while, I keep thinking of you and what might happen if we ever meet again. I've been told to resist it, if I give in I'll lose it all but we both know I can't deal with temptation.

March 30, 2011

a year ago

It's been a year since I met you. Oh, time flies but feelings never die. You're still a part of my mind and even worse a part of my heart. How can it be, that two souls can't leave each other behind when the distance has teared them apart?

fact #1

Fact: Not once have I talked about you without shedding tears.

i'll take it

It was the truth, that's why it hurted. It was raw, apparently what I needed. It was bold and hurtful and still here I am writing to you, because after all, love is love and I'll take your words this time.

March 28, 2011

not my business

Sometimes I find myself thinking about you, more than I should. And I wonder where you are and how you're dealing with your life, not that it's any of my business anymore.

March 23, 2011

the pending messages

I don't understand what you want from me anymore, I don't think I ever did. These days you leave me messages saying I should get on more, and whenever we meet you say nothing at all.

March 22, 2011

the power of change

Because it comes from within, no outside inspiration will do, it's only about you. Took me a while to understand but change is in my hands. I decide where my mind goes, I decide how to deal. The power of change lives within me.

March 18, 2011

i want you

“I just want you…that’s it. All your flaws, mistakes, smiles, giggles, jokes, sarcasm. Everything. I just want you.”
                                                                                                                               -Sara Quin

March 17, 2011

the old habits

Sometimes I wish my heart knew better than going back to it's old habits of loving you, I never learn.

March 15, 2011

i choose

You don't get to choose for me. Yes, I care about what you think, but this is my life. I've worked hard for what I have, for what I've gotten, and I'm not going to limit myself for you. Not anymore.

March 14, 2011

missing places

So you miss that place you once belonged to, but that place isn't really the same anymore. Time passed and things changed, there's no way you are the same you used to be, there's no way that place is still the same. You end up homesick for a place that doesn't even exist anymore, homesick for a place in your imagination, what to do with that?

farewell conversation

You: You do realize that if you go, you'll be completely alone?
Me: Yes, I know. And I know I might get lonely sometimes, but hey, I get lonely when I'm around you too, so I think I can deal.


Suddenly life surprises you and you end up places you never thought you'd be emotionally or physically. The unimaginable becomes possible and world of opportunities opens up before your eyes. It is up to you to take the chance, so stop thinking about it and go for it.

March 11, 2011

about clean breaks

We're messy, we're bad and falling apart. Why don't I know how to step back? Clearly I know nothing about clean breaks, it is as if I liked pouring water in soil, making mud and diving in, head first. We're messy, we're bad and we don't seem to be saying goodbye anytime soon.

March 8, 2011

i'm giving in

I can't take it anymore, should I resist or give into it? Somebody help me stop. Never mind, I'm giving in, giving in into my old ways, my bad habits, especially you.

March 2, 2011

this time

And just this time, will you shut up and kiss me?

March 1, 2011

no longer afraid

I used to be so scared, so confused in this storm of life.
Nothing but lighting and rain,
so much rain.

Learned to swim to get by,
I was tired,
wanted a clear sky and a sun shining bright.

So I held His hand,
he grabbed me tight and said it would be alright.
The clouds left, a blue sky stayed.
Sunrays drank the water away.
I felt all right.

He said He’d never leave my side.
I’m no longer afraid.
He’s watching my back.

February 28, 2011

about grief

"The days will always be brighter because he existed. The nights will always be darker because he’s gone. And no matter what anybody says about grief, and about time healing all wounds, the truth is, there are certain sorrows that never fade away until the heart stops beating and the last breath is taken."
                                                                                                            -Tiffanie Debartolo

February 26, 2011

the deserving one

I deserve a goodbye. I deserve a reason why. I know I do. What's the most horrible thing I could've done that you won't even return my calls?

expired love

I loved loving you but it just wasn't enought for me anymore. A one sided love has a short shelf life, and mine definately expired.

February 25, 2011

the cloud

I wanted to be faceless and bodyless. I wanted to just be a cloud of ideas, of thoughts roaming around the city with no form, with no frame to judge.

brand new

We are brand new everyday, isn't that great? Sun rises and bang! A new chance, a new opportunity to right the wrongs, heal our wounds and move on.

February 23, 2011

on your own

And if eventually you're on your own, you have to learn to deal. You wake up alone, not lonely. You end up alone, not lonely. Being alone doesn't mean having to be lonely, keep that in mind.

February 21, 2011


I don’t cry as much as I used to,

I feel fine most of the time,
I know this is progress.
I find myself being positive,
I feel like there are opportunities.
I value my family,
I value my friends,
I value myself,
I know this is progress.
I remember the past,
and look forward to the future.
I sing and dance,
I do things on time,
I know this is progress.

you'll always be beautiful

I know you're scared of being left on the side. But we all love you, no matter what. I assure you that. I know it's tough letting people know who you truly are, but I know if you do your colors will shine bright. Dear friend, don't be scared. Even when you accept it and let it out, you'll be beautiful.

February 20, 2011

faster than a ray of light

You were gone, bang,

faster than a ray of light,
leaving nothing but silence behind.

And oh! I waited,
I waited for a while,
but a girl with no hope,
can only hold on for a given time.

You were gone, bang,
Faster than a ray of light,
and you didn’t even leave my sight.
Funny how people change
with just a blink of the eye.

February 19, 2011

i found it

I used to play bride,

so many illusions on my mind,
of days to come and a loving man.

Now the day has come,
I’m dressed in white,
all our loved ones around,
To see us start a brand new life.

We’ll say our I do’s,
out loud and proud.
I found love,
I found it for life.

(Poem written for a contest on Booksie a picture of a bride was the inspiration)