still on my mind

Was he content with his life? Did he love his wife? Did he enjoy everytime she gave him news of being pregnant? Was he proud of his empire and what he accomplished? Did he play enough baseball? I recall he loved it. And lastly and painfully, was he ready to go?

let yourself

If you find yourself tripping then just let yourself fall.

the girl i am (negative)

Ended up this way for many reasons,

my parents, siblings, friends and strangers contributed,

so did my city and the cities I never went to.

I am a jealous, bitter being,
never forgetful, sometimes hurtful,
lazy and dry.
Will tear you up in my mind,
wish you no good luck, 
selfish and fearful person.
Liar for convenience,
repressed, silent yeller, 
punch a beanbag to let it go kind of person,
not competitive but sore loser, 
distrustful,
broken, 
awkward. 

the girl i am (positive)

Ended up this way for many reasons,

parents, siblings, friends and strangers contributed,

so did my city and the cities I never went to.

I'm a kind, loyal, forgiving, peaceful Disney fan, 

baker, writer, sucker for books that make you cry,

promise and secret keeper, 

hugger, unicorn and happy ending lover,

charming when needed,

listener, curious, try it at least once kind of person, 

veggie lover since I was 3, 

sing in the car and the shower,

help you study, sometimes cupid, 

avid in finding music no one likes or knows about type of person.

kamikaze mission

What kind of person walks right into a bomb? 
A person who has never won nor lost,
one with no previous wounds 
or memories that prevent them from stepping in.

Someone like me.

feeling lucky

I feel his lips on mine now,

get to carry him with me,

I feel lucky.

the worn down running shoes

So with my imaginary torn down running shoes I heard them say "if you run from love then you've never felt it, those who have never run, they look for it." 

Guess I haven't been that lucky.

i tried

He said I didn't know how to make people feel special. I tried my best, I really did.