fixated on me

When his eyes were fixed on me I felt him observe the waves in my dark hair, the way my glasses sat on my nose, my lip shine being different from a day before, he noticed it all and just smiled.

sorry about your sleepless nights

It was late at night, I tried not to think of you since they say people can't sleep when someone is thinking about them and tomorrow you have to go to work.

addiction

The thing about addiction is you go back for a drop and the oceans pour in, making you drown underneath the waves.

three years later

Three years later and your name still makes me weak on my most composed day.

Three years later and I still wonder if it was me who shot us down.

not real

It felt real even if it wasn't. When you stop noticing the difference you're screwed.

the defining past

No matter how much I try to deny it and forget it, erase it from my memory, I can't. It doesn't matter that I've kept it a secret, I know and that's enough to haunt me forever. I'll always know I betrayed myself, I'll always know I was weak, I'll always know. My past defines me, it's still changing me whether I want it or not.

the night i wasn't invisible

He walked in shy, didn't know anyone around, he sat next to me and asked why I wasn't playing the game, "I'm awful", I confessed. His eyes fixated on me, such an usual feeling, he told me his story in less than 5 minutes and kept asking about me.

I wasn't invisible that day.

Not to him, his eyes kept locking with mine all night.

I wasn't invisible to him.

the eternal questions

Not here, not now,
not there, not then,
I never find the pieces to mend.

Not here, not there,
not now, not then,
can somebody please explain?

If not here, if not now, then when and where?