miles apart

These things never crossed his mind I'm sure, but they crossed mine everytime our eyes locked thousands of miles apart. I wasn't able to separate one from another. I felt intensly for those eyes, for that skin, for that mind. 

I yearned to meet him. 

I feared that same thing too.

family

I was thankful for my family, no one suffers your losses like they do, no one holds your hand to stand up like they do. They truly make everything better.

sinking

Sinking back,
back to the abyss of positive impossibility.
I drown looking up,
as I watch my murderer try to comple the deed,
never have seen such vicious eyes,
that hatred and doubt in anything else but a mirror.

the great days

You're going to be okay,
even more you're going to be great,
these days will be left behind.

You will smile and mean it everytime,
you will cry when it's needed (not every night),
accept the compliments without snarky remarks.

It's alright if you don't see it now,
I know it's foggy,
but eventually,
eventually you're going to be great.

they broke up

They finally broke up,
I'm not sure who had the last word,
it ended anyway,
it had been a long time coming. 


She lost him or she got rid of him,
but it doesn't mean I win.

the terrible

Asked if he was one of the bunch,

he was and it made me sound terrible,

I was terrible indeed, ill.

Contaminated by self doubt,

all you can do is destruct yourself. 

They were all my soldiers, 

helped shooting me down.

resilient material

Day by day the goodbye was easier than expected, the human heart is such resilient material, it seems we are driven to test it until it's about to break.

the stupid and childish

This is going to sound stupid and childish,
but I am stupid and childish so bear with me.

These feelings overwhelm me and I can't make them stop,
I try and try but they just won't go away,
it's silly, really, you shouldn't fall for complete stangers.