good days

 "I can't remember life without him. I think I did have good days..."

-Maria Mena

this being that i am

I tried listening and singing at the top of my lungs the saddest songs and still no tears. I think you made it, you left me as a dry and emotion-less being.

where to begin?

I want to believe again. 

I want to have hope.

I want to believe in love.

I want to believe it's all true.

I want to believe again. 

And I just don't know what to do.

random messages

I don't know if it's destiny, a coincidence or just that our hearts are connected but sometimes when I feel horribly sad and I shed my first tear I get a random message from you, and at least for that second when I  see your name on my screen I feel so much better. Thank you.

morning light

Oh what a beautiful sight, you standing by the window. The sun lightly illuminates your face as you sip your morning coffee. Such a familiar scene, the one I’ve witnessed for the past months. This is what people must mean when they talk about happiness, just a graceful, peaceful moment, so intimate that only true lovers can share. I’m not the sort of person who comfortably talks about emotion, especially when it comes to my own, but today this image, this moment is pushing me out into the darkness of a sentimental cliff. I wish I could control it, so in an effort to stay calm, I took a deep breath, I felt my lungs fill with the truest air, my body overflowing with the necessity to exhale my deepest feelings for you.

element of surprise

Wish you lived down my street so I could have the possibility to bump into you at any time. I'd love the element of suprise, especially if it involved you.

wake the feeling up

I had dream where I grabbed you by your shoulders and shook you until you came into your senses and realized you love me, like it was a feeling sleeping inside you, that just needed a quick start. Then I woke up and realized this probably wouldn't work so I won't even bother.

i miss

I didn't hear about the news until I got home from work, everyone was around the TV watching how the story developed, the images were shocking, horrible smoke, not even the news anchor could hide her pain as she said "armed men shot and lit fire to a local casino, up till now 40 people reported dead, they're still searching for bodies".  What has this city turned into? Who is capable of doing such things and keep walking around without a care in the world? I'm devastated and I feel power-less, I pray for the victims and their families, I pray for the safety of us all. 

This isn't my city. I miss my city.